In 1992, 2.30 AM, I woke up as I heard the noise in the house. I got out of my bedroom and asked mom what's going on. She told me that grandma had to be taken to the hospital. I stayed at home and to be honest, I couldn't sleep anymore. I was so nervous what if....?
At 4 AM, Mom came back from the hospital said that grandma had left us. Tears streamed down my face. I was so sad to know that the closest person in my life had gone forever :'(
Now, I'd like to reminisce about her. Grandma was a timid person. She didn't speak loudly. She didn't make noise when she laughed :). On top of that she loved me the most. I ran to her every time mom flew off the handle :p. Also, she was generous. She gave me dough aside from what I've gotten from my parents :). But she always did it secretly. Sometimes mom was suspicious where I got all the money from. LOL
I missed grandma when she was away, then I would take her muumuu with me in my sleep. I felt comfortable when I smelled it. I slept with my grandma until I was 12 :)
Grandma cooked every day. I liked most of her cooking. My favorite one was fried anchovies with peanuts and dried chillis. One day grandma accidentally fed me the chilli :) . Grandma didn't eat meat every first and fifteenth days of the month, only porridge and peanuts. I liked to help her take off the peanut shells.
When I was in middle school, grandma was diagnosed with stomach tumor. According to the doctor that was a benign tumor, and he said grandma had a chance of living for 2 years. After having a procedure, grandma had to take a rest. Since then, mom cooked for us.
Two years have passed. I went to high school. I remember 3 days before she passed away, I had a long day at school, I was knocked out when I got home. She asked our housekeeper to buy a beef ball soup cause she knew I didn't like the food on the table.
If I had known that she would have lived for another 3 days, I should have used those 3 days to cherish her. If I had known that morning was her last day, I would have gone to the hospital.
Even though grandma has left, she will be always in my heart.
I wish I can be your granddaughter again in my next life. This writing is dedicated to you, my beloved grandma.
I miss you...
